I read something recently about reasons to dissuade potential converts and money was one of the reasons. If someone couldn’t afford what it would cost to be Jewish (ritual items, shul dues, donations, schools, clothing, mikvah, Pesach food, etc) then they shouldn’t convert no matter how much they may want to be Jewish or how much they love Judaism and Jews. Because the community has enough of “their own” to support financially.
I’m afraid to think this could apply to emotional needs as well.
Assuming an acceptable, halachically valid conversion, no matter that the convert is supposed to be now accepted as if he or she were born Jewish, are converts still sort of like second-class citizens when it comes to their needs because the community has enough of “their own” (born Jewish) to support, even emotionally?
Even given my history (my maternal grandmother was born and initially raised Jewish, yet through a convoluted family history involving a mysterious death, betrayal, adoption, and antisemitism, she was later baptized and rasied Christian), I fear that I have no right to ask the community for help, for support. They have enough of “their own” to worry about.
Is this the depression talking? Is this irrational thinking that’s all twisted? Or is it true and I have no one? Who do I turn to? Where do I go for help?